in every way that counts, I am dead inside somewhere maybe I am screaming and weeping and howling like an animal but that is another person deep inside another person who has no access to the lips and face and mouth and head so on the surface I just shrug and smile and keep moving … Continue reading 33


trente deux

"I felt a Funeral, in my Brain, And Mourners to and fro Kept treading, treading, till it seemed That Sense was breaking through And when they all were seated, A Service, like a Drum Kept beating, beating, till I thought My Mind was going numb And then I heard them lift a Box And creak … Continue reading trente deux

lullaby in 30

clouds are falling apart crying neurotic drops timeless bullets majestic thunders accusing dancing slipping through my fingers dazzling lights boasting an ocean of shattered tears drifting between waves of tender sadness I bleed in blue dust covers the bruises callous pearls sheltered in slices of mud the sentence is pain friday, 4/08/17  

inertia in 29

close myself off to the world shields and ashes keep everyone out heart becomes rust from the poison in my thoughts and the worries and the fears shut them out destruct feel the heat across the skin the growl and moan of an empty stomach the numbness of an altered mind and the sickness of … Continue reading inertia in 29


how do our lives ravel out into the no-wind no-sound the weary gestures wearily recapitulant echoes of old compulsions with no-hand on no-string we fall into furious attitudes dead gestures of broken dolls words are no good words don't ever fit even what they are trying to say wednesday, 2/08/17

toast for a year in 27

to the year I told prefect to go fuck itself to the year I learned that love is lying in moments to the year I realized I was powerful in a way that had nothing to do with muscles and bones to the year I wept till all the stars coalesced into a shipwrecked blur … Continue reading toast for a year in 27