perspective in 38

for the past holds only this wisdom that love is a damaging mistake, and its accomplice, hope, a treacherous illusion. and if ever these twin poisonous flowers will begin to sprout again I will uproot them and ditch them long before they take hold. I want to tear myself from this place and rise up … Continue reading perspective in 38



I am my own biggest critic before anyone else has criticized me, I have already criticized myself. But for the rest of my life, I am going to be with me and I don't want to spend my life with someone who is always critical. So I am going to stop being my own critic, … Continue reading 37


crawling inside myself deeper coiled serpent throwing daggers with insane precision into my scars a thousand winds blowing the cold upon the softly shinning stars and words are dead dripping letters into nonsensical paragraphs pieces of me scattered rooted in the infernal void long live the word monday, 14/08/17


in every way that counts, I am dead inside somewhere maybe I am screaming and weeping and howling like an animal but that is another person deep inside another person who has no access to the lips and face and mouth and head so on the surface I just shrug and smile and keep moving … Continue reading 33

trente deux

"I felt a Funeral, in my Brain, And Mourners to and fro Kept treading, treading, till it seemed That Sense was breaking through And when they all were seated, A Service, like a Drum Kept beating, beating, till I thought My Mind was going numb And then I heard them lift a Box And creak … Continue reading trente deux